Tuesday, December 3, 2013

To Blog or not...

I've been having the hardest time getting on my blog lately, or anyone's for that matter. Maybe blogging is losing its appeal. I feel like if I want to get a picture out to people, I just use instagram.  Maybe I'm too lazy to jot some thoughts out, but if nothing else, I do need to write down what is going on in my life, just for myself.  Hopefully, if/when I go back and read some of these entries, I can say to myself,
Carlee, what an easy time you had.....Carlee, you really shouldn't have worried about that....Carlee, you look so much skinnier now than you did then...dang, girl!  Right.

So, Tim is in his second year and finals are in one week.  Yes, he is kind of freaking out.  In two weeks, it will all be over and I won't have to be a single parent anymore.  He is working so hard.  I love that guy so much.  We are still looking for something this summer and I keep asking Heavenly Father to help us find the best situation possible.  Lately though, I wonder if I should have been asking to help us find the best situation (without the possible stuff).  What is possible means another summer working for some government entity free of charge?  I guess it could be worse?  Last Sunday, I fasted for more faith.  I know there is always a positive to everything and I need to focus more on that...positive, positive, positive.

It snowed all day today, which means Bridger and I played inside all day too.  He went to bed early tonight.  I absolutely love the summer here but the winter is really hard for me.  My moods are probably tied to the weather, so I need to paint a room yellow or something.  Today, I thought about moving to Arizona and coming back in May.  I'll probably think about it tomorrow too.

Thanksgiving this year will go down as one of my favorites.  On a whim, all of my mom's sisters  (and families) came down to celebrate.  They are all gourmets and the food was out-of-this-world amazing.  Everyone loved Bridger so I got a nice little break.  St. George was sunny and beautiful.  We ate and walked, and saw Frozen (loved it!), and ate, and walked, and talked....love families so much.

Overall, life is good.  Last night, I laid in bed waiting for Tim to get home and remembered the Ensign sitting on the kitchen table.  I flipped to the back and read the stories from members around the world.  About half way through the first story, I started crying and I didn't stop until I had finished them all.  Maybe I just needed to cry, but I think I needed to feel the spirit more.  I love this gospel.  It is so simple and straight-forward.  I know that Heavenly Father cares more about his children and their individual lives than about politics and world news.  I want to be better.  I am so grateful for everything I have been blessed with - my husband. Bridger.  Family.  Isn't that what this life is all about?  Then I am truly blessed.

P.S. I dropped my phone in Target and it went splat in a big way.  I was able to get these videos off before it completely died.